Thursday, August 11, 2011

Parabéns, Brooklyn!

Parabéns means congratulations in Portuguese and there seems to be a lot of it going around these days. Last night at my capoeira academy, we had a mini-ceremony for a few people who are going to miss our big annual ceremony/performance (called a batizado) at the end of this month.  Oh -- the energy!!!!  Everyone seemed to be playing on one of those trampolines I mentioned in an earlier post.  Bouncing, flying, smiling, falling & bouncing back up again.  It was heaven to watch and bliss to play.  There is something about an entire room consciously giving good, strong energy to everyone else in the room that is so amazing.  In the midst of personal dramas, injuries, challenges, and the day-to-day grind of life, I sometimes lose this feeling throughout the year.  But every so often, and always during batizado time, the energy takes over and all I feel is love and home. 

Coming back to New York from two months in Denver vacationland was tough, and I jumped in head first into work, planning for the fall semester and re-organizing my apartment after my subletter moved almost all of my stuff around. This year, I'm also coordinating the big batizado event which means taking care of tons of little, yet really crucial details.  But even though it has been tough (oh how I miss the evening meals with Wade and his fresh-squeezed watermelon juice and how my face hurt from so much laughing), coming back has been a delight, too.  Planning for the event is going very smoothly, all of my work is coming together nicely, and even the weather is really nice again (no AC last night!!). 

But last night at the academy was when I really felt like I was 'back' -- and in a good way. I am a lucky girl, for sure.

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Urban Assault Stumblebums

This weekend, Wade and I (aka Team Stumblebum) completed the Urban Assault Ride here in Denver, a 25-ish mile bike race that is really a scavenger hunt for locations to complete obstacles that are really just an excuse to be silly all day long http://www.urbanassaultride.com/.  We volunteered all day the day before by helping with registration packet pickup so that we could do the race for free (score!!!).  The day of the race was super fun as we scampered from place to place facing silly challenges like a downhill slip and slide, mini-trike race, and finding three different cans of beer in a pool full of beer cans.  The ride itself was no joke -- we accidentally chose the almost-entirely-uphill route -- but was still pretty mellow.

I'm winding up my last week here and, let me tell you, I am not ready for it to end.  I'm excited to be coming back home to friends and family and my bed and shoe variety, but there are so many reasons why I don't want to leave:

1. The weather. It is perfect, even though it is very hot and a little humid lately.  The sun blasts down every day until the afternoon showers roll in (and force me back inside to get work done).  The evenings are warm, but often with a nice cool breeze.

2. The flowers. Wildflowers are everywhere here, usually in overgrown patches along the sidewalks or on the sloping lawns in front of houses.  Those patches are full of lilies, columbines, snapdragons, roses, daisies, hollyhocks and more.

3. The bike rides.  The weather is always perfect for a bike ride.  The slopes are hardly ever too steep and if they are too steep, they are brief. The view is always nice and overall the drivers are nice too.

4. The hottie.  Without really trying, I began dating someone here.  He's super sweet and smart and gorgeous. I will miss him.

5. The mangoes.  At first, they were 10 for $10. Now they're 2 for $1.  At those prices, I could nap in a tub full of mango meat. But instead, I've been eating them. Lots of them. With delicious yogurt. Mmmm.

6. The best buddy.  I realized something big this summer and here it is: There is no one on this earth with whom I feel more comfortable with than my best buddy, Wade. He has been my bestie for 20 years and knows more about me than anyone ever has or probably ever will. He's a great long-distance friend and always has been --we always stay in close touch, no matter which time zone or country we're living in, even in the long-lost era when long distance phone calls and letters stuffed full of pictures were the only way to keep updated. But, logistically, it's been years since we've been so close for so long. I could write forever about how great it has been to be around for the day-to-day.  I'm so happy that I could make his trip happen, especially because we are in a time of our lives when both us us really needed this kind of friend-therapy.  It has been truly perfect, every day. 

So, instead of giving into this feeling of sadness that it is ending, I am just going to focus on how grateful I am that this time was possible.  Sighhhhhh.

Thursday, July 21, 2011

Sitting down

I just got off the phone with a great friend.  After giving her the run-down of the past week's fun and funkiness, she reminded me of the practice of flowing.  She spoke of the human need to control things and of the impossibility of doing so all the time.   Sometimes, things will emerge out of the changed forms of other things, and we have no way of knowing or even guessing how it will look or be.

Every time I speak with this friend, the conversation leads her to speak some little nugget of wisdom. The last time, as we were talking about being too hard on ourselves most of the time, she said, "I want to treat myself like I treat a lover," and this notion sent me reeling for weeks as I realized how thoughtful, forgiving, and kind I am to my lovers and as I tried to figure out how to be the same way with myself.  That last nugget of wisdom just might have changed my whole life. And the nugget she gave me today might be equally as important to my life.  It was this:

"Sometimes you just have to sit down without knowing whether there's a chair there behind you."

Phew.  The idea is, I think, to trust that the chair is there (who was it who said, "Leap, and the net will appear"?), but I also see that it's not such a big deal if it isn't there. Yeah, you'll fall on the floor and if anyone is nearby, they'll have to quiet their instinct to laugh at you as they offer you a hand to help you get up (and anyone far enough away will not quiet their instinct and will laugh at your fumble).  So what?

Last week, Wade and I went to a place called JUMP STREETS, which is basically a huge trampoline room for kids. We were, by far, the oldest people there and we were bouncing around like kangaroos. I was practicing front flips and working up the nerve to try backflips.  When I did try them, it was fun, even though I never quite landed them.  But Wade would do this silly thing of jumping up really high with a huge goofy grin on his face and then landing as if he were sitting (like landing in a pike, I guess) and then bouncing back up to standing.  In essence, he was sitting in a place where there was no chair.

Of all the moves I tried that day (including bouncing off the wall-mounted trampoline, head flips and the aforementioned backflip), the chair-sit move was the hardest to try.  Obviously, I knew I was safe, and that I'd have no choice but to land on the trampoline and bounce back up.  But there was some mental blockage against sitting down with no chair behind me.

Of course, I eventually tried it.  And of course I laughed the whole time.  The first time, I think I bounced up and fell forward onto my face (or, at least, I imagine it that way because I like slapstick).  The second time I tried it I landed back up on my feet.  And then, before long, it was like nothing.  This is probably one of the first moves they teach in gymnastics classes (or whatever kind of class it is that takes place on a trampoline), but for me, it was the one that invoked the most fear.  I don't even know what I was afraid of; I was just afraid.  But, it turned out to be super easy and very fun.

So, as I apply my friend's nugget of wisdom, I'm going to imagine my whole life taking place in a trampoline.  It's a place where my skips, trips and falls are met with a bouncy surface that pops me back up again.  It's a place where -- with a little bit of common sense, caution, nerve and cardio endurance -- my attempts to practice old moves or try new ones are rewarded with giggles and soft landings. It's a place where I can sit down without knowing if there's a chair behind me and discover what's ready to be discovered.

The Elephant in the Room

So, life in Denver has been sooo good that I'm not quite ready to come back yet.  But, nonetheless, original plans move forward and I'll be back in just over a week. We've been keeping busy, though its tough to remember all of what we've been up to.  Lots of bike rides, trips to the farmer's market, yummy at-home meals, lots of laughing and other fun. 

Though I've been keeping busy with my own work, when I get back to Brooklyn, things will pick up speed and the vacation-style of working won't cut it anymore.  So it's pretty easy to see why I'm hesitant to come home.  But then things from home started creeping in on me....reminding me that I am, in fact, going back soon and that things are going to be quite a bit different when I do.

I had already known that a large number of my closest friends in BK are planning to move away between now and October. And I was preparing for the void that will be left when they go.  Then yesterday, I learned of two more families really important to me who are planning to move away; one family is leaving as soon as September, the other within the next year or two.  The void just got so much bigger.

But for some reason, I'm not freaking out about it.  I am sad, of course, and will miss all of the people I love, but I am also curious about what can happen in the midst of this much change happening all at once.  I'm not only excited for me, but for all of my friends who are heading off to new adventures.  Normally, I am terrified of things changing. But the past year has taught me that sometimes things have to fall completely apart in order for anything at all to come together.   In my life's history, I've always been the one leaving or moving, never the one left behind.  So now that the tables are turned, what else is there to do but to pull my chair in closer and see what's good on this side?

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Noosa Alert!

So, things have picked up speed here in Denver and I haven't made much time to update here.  We've been staying busy enjoying all of the free and low cost experiences that Denver has to offer.  Last weekend we went to the First Fridays art walk and First Saturday at the Denver Art Museum.  On Sunday we took a super long bike ride from park to park to pool to park again, with a frisbee/cartwheel break in between. 

This weekend we took a short hike up to Bridal Veil Falls, a thin but fast-moving 20 foot tall waterfall that runs between two slick rock faces.  The whole hike was beautiful; within each mile, the terrain switches, going from meadow-y open spaces to forest glen to river-side meandering to a craggy uphill path to a boulder hopping finish.  On the way back, we watched a storm roll in behind us and were cooled by its drizzles. 

The drive to this trailhead passes by The Stanley Hotel, which is where The Shining was filmed.  Next weekend, we're going to watch the movie and then visit the hotel ----- spoooooky times!!!

The other discovery of epic proportions is our discovery of the most delicious yogurt ever made in the history of the universe.  It's called Noosa, is Australian style and made fresh here in Colorado.  We picked up a huge batch from the farmer's market this weekend.  It tastes like creme-fraiche and whipped cream swirled together and when topped with mango, cherries, and strawberries, it is the yummiest summer dessert I've ever had.  Long live the Noosa!!  All hail the Noosa!!!

Thursday, June 30, 2011

Black lipstick for coffee

I'm sitting here at Pennsylvania Perk (because it's on Pennsylvania Ave, not because it's in Pennsylvania) and some guy just walked in wearing an oxford shirt, tie, black jacket, floor-reaching black satin skirt and black lipstick.  Why write about it?  Well, because that's about the most interesting thing that's happened in the past week. 

Life here in Denver is very much like life would be in Brooklyn right about now, but with less capoeira and nephew time.  Oh, and of course, less sweat. My best buddy works from about 8am to 8pm, so I'm on my own most of the time and I'm filling the hours with some online work (prepping for next semester), taking an online class (for TESOL certification), walking in the park, biking around town, and cooking whatever is on sale at Whole Foods (last night: chicken thighs and mustard greens). 

I've taken a few classes with the two capoeira groups here. The folks from Capoeira Luanda are really great - strong capoeiristas and very nice people.  Their batizado is next week, so I'm looking forward the workshops and dance classes they're going to offer.  I took a maculele workshop with the other group, Canto do Galo, the first weekend I was here during their batizado.  The class was really great -- it was taught more like an african dance class (moving across the floor) and was full of high energy. They do maculele differently than I do -- hitting just on the 4th beat instead of the 3rd and 4th, so it was interesting to adjust. But other than the maculele, I wasn't that into Canto do Galo's training/playing style.  I took a class with Mestre Acordeon, which was a good experience, but I couldn't help thinking that Foca is better teacher by far, and even that all of our visiting teachers who give classes during batizado week (I'm thinking of Ralil, Bahia, Papiba, Nagi, Bikudo) are better at the actual teaching part than Acordeon was on this day.  I'm not intending to talk shit about Mestre Acordeon; it's just that every time I've trained with anyone outside of Raizes, I notice again how amazing my teachers are and how lucky I am to have found them.  And these teachers from other groups are realy great, so it is an even higher compliment to my group that they're the cream of such a good crop.  During roda time, when Acordeon was singing, I really felt privileged to be there -- the man's voice is so beautiful.  Anyway, I'm going to Luanda classes two or three times a week and am really glad that Profesor Gaviao and all of his students have welcomed me as they have.

We're working on plans for the holiday weekend.  We were going to go tubing down Boulder Creek or the Cache la Poudre river, but water levels are too high, so the waterways are closed for tubing :(
So, the back-up plan will include some biking & picnicking. Not bad for a back-up plan.

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Yummy Pike Wilderness

I have such mixed feelings about camping.  On the one hand, I totally love it: the freedom to do nothing but stare into a fire for hours, the fresh air, the fluttering of bird wings, the hum of the river passing by my campsite.   On the other hand, I sometimes feel like I've outgrown it: the days of dirt lodged in every crevice of my hand/fingernails/toes, temperatures dropping so low that I don't want to leave my relatively warm sleeping bag/tent to find a spot to pee at 6am, boredom, and too many sausages and s'mores consumed in too short of a time period. 

Last week, we went to the Pike National Forest to do some camping on Mount Evans.  Not the hike-in-with-all-your-stuff-in-your-backpack type of camping, but the buy-firewood-at-the-grocery-store-and-park-your-car-and-unload-into-a-campsite-with-a-handy-fire-pit-already-there type of camping.  It was, overall, splendid, and even the massive amounts of dirt on my hands, arms, legs, jeans and socks didn't really bother me until the last day.  We found a lovely day hike trail called Abyss, which sounds like it could be rough, but was actually a smooth, meandering stroll through stands of aspen and pine, through meadows of dandelions, log hopping over rapid creeks, with views sometimes of whole vast valleys and mountain peaks.

It's a good thing it was an easy hike, because I was feeling a bit nauseous from eating too much sausage that morning, which is a condition hereby known as feeling sauseous (which is to be nauseous from sausage, in case you didn't figure that out already).  I left the mountain with clearer lungs from the fresh crisp mountain air and with a hilariously shaped hiker's sunburn that made its way around my tank top straps, into the part in my hair and all the way down to a spot on my low back that was exposed while walking with the backpack on. 

I think I've decided that I don't really like hiking so much.  If we're hiking to a place (i.e., a lake to swim in, a waterfall to climb under, etc.), then I don't mind, but the "hike for the sake of hiking" experience just doesn't speak to me. And even though I've learned this lesson before (ten years ago, on the first day of a 5 day journey along the southern part of the Appalachian Trail), I seem to forget it and wind up agreeing to go on hikes with people who genuinely like them.  Hiking, like running without music or riding a bike with no destination, is just so boring, but that might have more to do with my own dislike of being too quiet to hear all the thoughts running through my head and may have nothing at all to do with the actual act of walking in a forward motion on a dirt path.  I know that people really like to be all up in nature, observing its glory, but I find this is difficult to do while walking on a surface that alternates from being smooth dirt to craggy rocks, to full of earth-poppin' tree roots, to slippery mud slicks and back to non-threatening clear dirt pathways.  In other words, I spend most of my time looking down to avoid stepping on something that will twist my ankle instead of basking in the glory of the wild (to be fair, I do this in the city too, and as a result haven't stepped in dog poop fr as long as I can remember).

But overall the trip was lovely, the wilderness was amazing, and the campfires were spectacular..

We returned to Denver with just enough time to shower (twice) and get ready to enjoy the Gay Pride events of the weekend. And as the Flintstones theme song promises, we did have a gay ole time.